What have you become?
First things first, the person I am talking about in this post is not the same person as the previous post.
I know that I played a role in it ending. I know I did made many mistakes that lead to the end. Many out there did say and still continue to say that I never deserved you. Maybe, maybe not. Well, they don’t know everything about us. Everything we shared and everything we went through. I have accepted that I made mistakes and I have learnt from it. I have even apologized for the mistakes I did. Something I rarely do. I never held a grudge against you. I am not upset that things ended and they we are not together. However, things that have happened with you is rather saddening to me.
Take a look at yourself. What have you become? You have changed in so many ways. You are no more the person that I knew. I remember the type of people you used to hate. Now, you seem to be surrounded by those and only those type of people? If these were people that are essential for your existence then I won’t be saying anything. But they are not. Well, I am no one to say that you cannot mix around with these people. But look for yourself what you have become because of that. You were way smarter than me. You went to a school way better than I am at now. What happened then? What happen to that dream of yours of becoming a doctor? I always wanted you to be one. Just look at where are you now and what you have become. I was never expecting this from you. Turn around and look at what caused all these. Wondering how come I know so much? I have always checked on you. I always wanted you to do fine. You have this special place in my heart which will be very difficult to be replaced by anyone else. The bond that we shared. It was more than just special.
Those I mentioned above are very academic. You still can make amends now so its not too bad. What worries me more is your changed attitude. Relationship was something you have always take seriously. I don’t see that happening now. What happened? I still have all your letters to me. I do read them from time to time. The change I see from the letters to the present you never fails to amaze me. I guess maybe its fine if you are not serious about what you are doing. But you are seriously playing around. I don’t think that is very good. What happened to all those good morals and values you had. Think about it. I do not know what caused this change in you but it is definitely not for the better. I really do hope you rethink about what you are doing.
One good thing to note is that not everything has became worse or bad. I see that you are closer to your family and all that. I have also learnt quite a few things from you. I now have much closer friends unlike last time. I spend much more time with my family now. Most importantly, I have eradicated the “hate” thinking. I guess you will be the only one to understand what the “hate” thinking means. I seriously hope things will change to some extent. I just want to you let you know (though you might not read my blog) that you have a special place in my heart and I will always be there when you need me. I am happy that at least now we talk to each other in a much better way unlike last time. I wish you all the best in the future and sincerely hope you do very well.
Hoping for the very best for you.
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